No photos for this post--mostly because I like to give my camera a rest every once in a while-and I haven't really felt like taking photographs lately--sometimes it's nice to just be with Arie with out shoving a camera in her face.
I've been doing a lot of thinking lately.
Thoughts about life, happiness, love, priorities, identity, parenting....
I started to read the Happiness Project by Gretchin Rubin. Before I started reading this book, I started to deeply think about mindful living- something you'd think was easy (and maybe it is for some) but for me, it's not.
I know I get caught up in the "busy-ness" of day to day life and I know that I don't stop to enjoy my life that I have been so very blessed with.
One of my favorite things of late is time with Arie cuddling in our bed before I leave for work. She strokes my face and my hair, she tells me she loves me. She calls me mama.... it's the best feeling in the world. I am not thinking about anything else in my life during these moments. Just being, soaking her in, wishing I could burn this in my memory forever because life is fleeting and these moments are really just moments- they vanish so very quickly.
It has taken a very long time for me to get to this place in my life. A few years ago- right after I had Arie, it was trying. I experienced PPD and PPOCD. I basically also went through an identity crisis, and I felt out of control. I finally feel grounded, accepting of the person I have become, embracing the life that I am in.
Life is good.
I am blessed.
And for all that I am blessed with, I am grateful....I hope I continue to be for the rest of my life....and I hope I can teach Arie mindful living as well.